I know that lately I haven't posted much, and not about much. That's because I haven't felt like doing anything. And I haven't really been doing anything at all other than playing video games. Well, I won't be buying any new games any time soon (except for some Nintendo 3DS stuff when that comes out), because I have a long lineup of games that need to be played first.
The reason I've been stuck in this rut is unclear. Lately, I've been speaking to a few friends, I've been doing some reflecting. I don't like who I am, and I'm trying to change. I haven't done anything drastic, and I haven't changed my pattern or my personality, so it doesn't seem like anything's changed. But it has, because I see what I need to fix. It's just becoming a matter of fixing it, and I can't guarantee I won't need a little help with that.
I'm evolving into a stronger me. I've re-expanded my music library, for one, which is already giving me a different outlook. I've made some decisions about my future, and I feel like I'm building self-discipline. God knows I can't make that judgement on my own, so I'll see where it takes me.
Another thing that's happened is that my will for a getting a girlfriend had dropped. I think I was just losing hope. However, as of late, I already feel like I'm closer to getting back on my horse again. Anything can happen, so I can only hope what happens will be good. It's been far too long for me, so I'll probably have to figure some of this stuff out all over again, but hey, I'm sure worse has happened to better.
I feel like in the recent past, I've really downgraded my personality and lost the comfortability I had. I'm going to try my best to get it back, because I know that's all I'll need to do to get back on my feet again, raring to go. Maybe I need to accomplish something big. Or even small. Or just something personal. Video game unrelated, of course. I'm smarter than that.
Blog related news: I'm not planning on posting anymore Blackfire stuff anymore. None. Reading back, I realized that the action-genre doesn't really belong in a book. So I'm disregarding that. I probably won't do another story, but if I do, expect absolutely no fight scenes, because they don't actually turn out very well. Thank you for your time.
KingRanter
